I have committed no crime to compare
yet still
my heart cries out to him
survive!
do not deny him once again!
live still, and
speak his name with tenderness
christ forgave the hands and spear which pierced his side
how much more would he forgive thee!
I wish, in moments of clarity,
pleading with Judas to yet live,
I could hear the same words
echoed back at me
Live! And yet utter his name with tenderness!
As the Lord does utter yours in heaven!
A garden is a product of time
To that I say
Worms are History
And I've been split in half
As a child I was Marigolds
I am Marigolds still
Born of the seeds left behind
Year by Year a new generation
the same weeds
different weeds
the same sun
different days
Wondering
If I will ever stop needing water
What business does a Marigold have
Wondering
If it will ever become a Rose
maybe I'm space junk
sad pictures of worthless objects
orbiting in a galaxy of stars
today my anger is a plastic water bottle
victim to science
and the endless vacuum of space
I didn't go to work today
because my science forgot to make the motivation chemical
there is electricity in my brain
I have neurons and I don't know what that means
my depression
is a water bottle in space
what a journey it is
to be human
all my life you have been a place
an event a person a thing
you're gone now
reborn to moments and memories
you are where I remember you
so I choose sunlight
flower petals
warmth after a cold day
I love you
you live where I live
within
a second life
a second death
beside me
I'm still learning to breath
to take the universe within me
savor her particles
keep none of them
I'm still learning to be okay with that
i love you
in every bright
and quiet
place
until the stars
have joined us
and the silence
is final
and even then
i love you
until the very moment
"a little further"
has become a lifetime
stretching
our little eternities
to forever
and beyond
