memory is a double edged sword
I thought
I had forgotten the shape of your nose
now you're here
Hello
how dare you make me remember myself
memory is a double edged sword
I thought
I had forgotten the shape of your nose
now you're here
Hello
how dare you make me remember myself
there was a time when I didn't eat
when I counted the minutes between calories
fed myself on the relief of deception
I've never remembered so keenly
anything like I do those few remembered meals
the white rice still sticks in my mouth
the tang of barbecue on my tongue decision's ghost
cold peas bursting between noodle and sauce
my life's victory a caramel
a caramel I never ate
how sick am I
that tonight I long for that hunger?
I'm still learning to breath
to take the universe within me
savor her particles
keep none of them
I'm still learning to be okay with that
i love you
in every bright
and quiet
place
until the stars
have joined us
and the silence
is final
and even then
i love you
until the very moment
"a little further"
has become a lifetime
stretching
our little eternities
to forever
and beyond