memory is a certain immortality

all my life you have been a place

an event a person a thing

you're gone now 

reborn to moments and memories 

you are where I remember you

so I choose sunlight

flower petals

warmth after a cold day

 I love you

   you live where I live

      within

          a second life

             a second death

         beside me

Grief: Noun

 

 grief is not my mantle

 a flame that burns within

 

it is not a lifestyle a mood a circumstance a feeling

 it is every moment I have ever lived 

 

all at once

 

my hands empty

 of the thing I have lost

desperation

I've never know time by her name

Never flown and let myself drown

How could I begin to guess the seconds of sand given to us

Like stars, numberless in the heavens 

I was promised a lifetime

To God that means anything

I'm beginning to feel like forgiveness is weighing

I need to let go

Before I become someone anew

Before I drown the parts of me that need forgiving with you

 

I was promised a lifetime

Nobody knows what that means

I can't say I forgive you

So here you are

Dying

Always getting the last word

the chill of a Happy graveyard

Every time I wish I was dead 
I write a little letter inside my head 
Of wishes and history 
Things better left unsaid 

Seldom do I find the time to rhyme 
These secret little thoughts 
Or allow them space to shine 

They're rather a selfish bunch I think 

For hoping for a day 

The world would be better if I stayed

Graveyard- Writing Experiment

A graveyard.

A tombstone.

A crow.

Death. Memory. Life.

Mist. Curling, swirling mist. Laughing, whispering. Come come come. 

Rustling. Swaying. Leaves grass flowers bugs bees spiders trees. Creeping crawling fluttering flying.

Rolling, sliding, glassy, smooth. Rough, jagged, worn.

Figures.

Shadows.

Laughter.

Grief. Absence.

madness

Walk, glide, run, sprint, hop skip.

st o p

b r ea th e

live 

die

questions answers pain joy loss hurt

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